The current world according to me

“Growing up means realizing a lot of your friends aren’t really your friends.”

Okay , i’m just 18 yo , pretty young to be weeping around and too young to be fed up with the people around me , but here i am bead down to me knees by getting betrayed upon like maniacs

Let me start with a chapter with the young me , Travelling to a few years back when i was a child , i was an introvert , in this nonsense kind of problem you can’t make friends , can’t hangout , can’t be basically social i would say . i was suppressed by my own classmates , my own peer posed an immense peer pressure since my childhood , coming to studies i was okayish so no issues

Jumping to my “young” age i.e 18 , I unfortunately enough i got dumped by a person who was special to me (everyone knows what i mean ).

This vague sort of thing put me in pre dpressive state (maybe) i was really bad effected and i needed an escape , i do got a friend sort of but naaah i wanted that person only

Looking to yesterday i found that person wiwth someone else alughing like nothing happened with 0 sort of sadness so i reallize how easy i is to throw someone out

But poor me i just cant throw that feeling outside me which is inside me , I sometimes wonder why people cheat ? , why do they play with feelings even knowing that the person is into you and is sort of sensitive to play with , but in today time who cares , i always try to be carefree as she is but i ,i cant ,idk why i cant but seriously i cant. Basically i don’t want to bore anyone out but i’m really boring whyyyyy?

I know this is a pathetic blog but i’m sure i’ll share more lol.